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It has been one year ago today when I found the lump that turned out to be cancer. I have gone through so many events, treatments and changes that I could not have expected.
I started this blog for two reasons. One was to help me keep doing my art and it did help me with that. Another reason was that I thought it might help me deal with cancer and it did help me cope. My blog did help me with that at a certain level and for a certain time. It turned out that much of the time I was too sick to keep the blog up. I did however keep drawing some and making jeweling, which required much less thought for me.
At this point I have decided that I am changing my blog dramatically.
It feels much too personal now for me. It feels too personal to share when I want to give links to my blog for potential buyers and other artists. Even though I still barely have any hair I am really in recovery and I want to live that way. I want my blog to be about my art and thus about me, not about me and cancer anymore.
Therefore, shortly after this post I will be changing this blog and modifying it greatly. There will not be any links to cancer nor talk of cancer per say. It will be about my art. This now feels much better for me. I had thought about closing this altogether and starting a new one, but honestly I do like this blog. I have and do wear hats so it still makes sense. I have never gotten so many compliments on my summer straw hat as I have now. I think I will stick with hats forever. So the title seems just as good albeit strange.
I'm making this one last post just as a last statement and explanation for anyone who is actually reading this and following it. I want to move on from my cancer. I do not want to be a cancer person all my life. My heart goes out to all and anyone out there that does have cancer and especially anyone who has just found out he or she has cancer. I'm a year out and you can get there too. There is no pretending it is easy, but it can be done. Try to find ways to laugh be it silly movies or what ever. Most of all let yourself be tired, sick, or in a bad mood. It will go away especially if you let yourself be that way for a day or two or three.
Now I move on to better things and better times and I wish, hope and pray the same for all of you.
