Should I or Shouldn't I ?

I am so torn between posting any photos of my breast. It is so personal to say the least. Anyone and everyone would be able to see it.

However, if I do this, that would be one reason to do it.

When I found out that I had to have a lumpectomy or an hysterectomy I was terrified. I went on the internet trying to find everything and anything I could. But it was all so technical and dry and I was so lost in so many things and I couldn't really make any since of any of it. It was the hardest thing I ever did. I had to learn so much in the shortest amount of time in my life.

I wanted photographs and fast information in my language. It was hard to find if at all.

Was it because photographs scare people? Photographs of breasts are too sexual or personal? Even if they are related to surgery? Too individual to each case? I don't know. I really don't.

As I have mentioned before I have lived in CA for many years and drawn the naked body for many more years, so I'm not as fearful of showing the naked body as some. I think it is beautiful in all it's shapes and forms and individuality. I think it's beautiful and not necessarily just a sexual vessel. There is far more to our bodies than that.

But since living on the East Coast, I now find a whole new way of group thinking. People on the east coast might be very offended by just viewing a naked breast in any form, be it art and even historically. They often will not let their children view famous artists in galleries or museums hanging work containing naked bodies. They themselves are often offended. Boggles the mind.

So now I'm confused and timid about showing my breast, even altered so that it is not so realistic and dramatic, softened and blurred a bit and delicate and posted very small. Should I or shouldn't I? I'm very on the fence about it. I've been thinking about it since I started this blog.

I've been wondering just why I'm doing this blog. I know it is for me. Is it for others too? What for and why? I'm not totally sure yet and that is why I have not yet sent this blog out to others. It's still somewhat of a secret. If you are reading this, you have just found it on your own and it is a surprise. Hi. :) Glad to meet you.

I would love to know what anyone thinks about my posting any photos like this here. I really need some feed back. In fact, I don't even know if blogspot will allow it now that I think about it.