We have been having a huge snow storm for, I think three days now. It feels like a week, I'm telling you.It's still going today and will be tomorrow too. I hate being locked in with snow storms. I could never live in some wintery, snowy place where you had to put on clothes where you couldn't see the person every time you went out and you had to use a vehicle that was made for some kind of winter war deployment. How do people live like that in places like Alaska?
I went out yesterday anyway. Man, I couldn't see more than ten feet in front of me. I couldn't go more than twenty miles an hour and everyone had to stop about twenty feet before any stop sign or light. Everyone for the most part drives really well here in bad weather. It's really quite amazing. You just drive almost like you are walking and you turn corners like you are driving a tracker.
I did really well until I got right home. Then someone in my own development scared the hell out of me. I thought for sure she was going to hit me! I was ready to get out of the car and find out who she was. I couldn't believe it. There is a parking lot in the center of where I live and I was coming in and she was going out. She was going out right in the middle of the road of course though. Just as I was coming in....she just kept on coming! I had no where to go. She missed me by very short inches. What the hell she was thinking, I have no idea. She could have waited just five seconds and it would have been really safe, but she had that dazed look on her face and she just kept on driving. I really thought she was going to hit me.
I know it probably sounds like I might have been the one that should have stopped, but I was already going in. I had no where to go. If I had made it all day with no accident and she hit me in my new car....I hate to think what I would be posting today. But I made it home ok thank God. I had turned around and hardly did what I had planned for that day because of the snow. It was just way too bad.
I really would like to go out and take photos. I'm dying to really. I might get out and do that. I would love to go to Everett Bridge and get some snow photos of that. That's a bit far and rough and I don't think I'm in shape for that today. My camera is a bit heavy and I don't know if I can do it yet. I might have to pass it up today. Rats. I wanted to do it yesterday and my breast was hurting so much I couldn't even drive much. That was another reason I turned around.
When I first moved here from S.F I took a lot of snow pictures. I froze myself to death taking them. I didn't have the right clothes or anything. Now I have some cloths and I can't get out. Maybe I'll go some place close today just to feel good. I LOVE taking photos and if I haven't done it for awhile I really miss it. I mean I really miss it and feel like something is wrong. More than drawing and painting actually. I guess that means I'm more of a photographer than a painter. But I can't give up the drawing and painting either. I tried both. I just have to do both. That's the way it is.So I went to a very special great paper store that is very very close to me yesterday. People come there from all over, even other states. I bought supplies to make Christmas cards. I'm late with that, but I think I can get it done. They will be pretty simple. I'm just going to do a simple watercolor and scan that, print it on a silk inkjet paper I bought and then make that into cards. It's snowing all day today again so it will be a good day to stay inside and make cards.
Well I just can't help but worry about my next Dr.'s appointment no matter how much I try not to. The closer it gets the more I'm worrying about it. It's this Thursday. That's when I'll know if I have to have a mastectomy or if these two surgeries were enough. I'm still very sore from the last one on last Thursday but I'm healing much better this time.
This time the clinic has called me numerous times where as the last time they only called me once. Interesting. This time I'm healing much better and they are calling me much more and the last time when I wasn't they only called me once. Must be cause they realized I didn't heal so well last time.
I'm just a bit tiered of it this time. It's really only been a few days since the last surgery, but my mind and body are counting from the first surgery. That's another reason I don't want to do the mastectomy but I really just don't want to do it for many reasons.
So today will be a good day to keep busy making cards and maybe wrapping presents. Today will be a Christmas day. All snowy and warm inside.When I lived in S.F. I saw homeless people every single day I lived there and it made me very thankful for the most basic elements in life. A cover over my head, warmth and food. Safety that I can count on and sleep well in the night.
These things we forget about and take for granted. When you see homeless people sleeping on the streets of a city with no warmth, no guaranteed food, and no safety, it makes you think....or at least it should.
Thank you God for what I have. The warmth , safety, food and friends and love in my life.
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